I wish I will meet him

Yes, I'm still alive though want to quite. Yesterday,
I was walking restlessly as I often do now. I saw people
are laughing, enjoying the weekend, some people were
performing and so so on. I was hungry, tired and lost
my mind, feeling terribly lonely and didn't know what
to do. In the same time I saw a man, standing on his
one leg begging. I felt ashamed, embarrassed and
some feeling that I cannot express. I avoid the person
as I was to ashamed giving some coin to another Indian

when both of us are in a foreign country. Later I realize
I should have helped him. It doesn't matter how I feel or
he feels at the moment but the only thing that matters
is the help. I wish and hope to see him again, then surely
I will talk to him.