Stop your emotions, hold your breath,
put head high, wake up, do the job first.


...... Remembering ZK at 03 then 11.

Sometimes you just need to pick
your self up,
and carry on. 

At times I could see me in Sunny  or Sunny in me.
I really really liked that someone has the same reactions
to the life. I am worried also as when I see myself fading away very fast
strugglin. I worry for Sunny but pray she stays the way she is
singing the life Sunny's way. 

I dreamt of

I don't regret if I die today.
Sometimes I am sad and excited.
I had a good life, specially times where
I was excited the life inside me always
carried me from everything. Yesterday
I dreamt a dream then I was laughing
at 1.26 am. I woke up I look at myself
I have lost my self. I don't react to anything
thats why I was reacting in the dream. Life is
all about reaction, if you are dead mentally there
is no point carrying it for nothing. Now
I live for the sake of living or and for somebody else
or some duty to full fill. But its not live it just carrying yourself
like a bag of sand. I tried my best and prayed but times I feel like
hitting a stone and bleeding all the way. I am losing all the way, no one
to listen with no one I can talk. I dreamt of and then I am dead.  

तू जो देख रहा है ओह तेरा नजरिया है,
अगर उसके अन्दर पाप नहीं तो तेरे अन्दर पाप कैसे?

तू जो देख रहा है ओह खुदाही तो है
ओह खुदाही तो है जो तू देख रहा है. 

Meeting an old friend

Woke up from Bed, forgetting the sorrow for
retirement of Rahul Dravid, tried some meditation.
I open my gmail ac. I got my 10 years long friend.
It feels awesome. Lots of memory during IIT days.
Those days I used to become hero often solving
some assignment :D:D , I was life-blind. After 10 years
I am still solving the assignments but no one calls me
Hero :D; but if I can then could be hero again
at least to my old friends and that's only matter to me.
Their faith and love for me is the drive for 10 years
long and still going one struggle.

मेरी आँखे शोती है,
मगर दिल हमेशा जगता है.

bhalo theko

I told this joking to one of my non-bong frnd in 2007.
Just read the mail again after long time :)
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bhalo theko gachh
shishire kachh
bhalo theko mon
saradinkhon
bhalo theko math
bhalo theo jol
bhalo theko desh amar kabita shesh