It has been a long, I came here to write. I was visiting my old friends
in Seoul, "the city of Joy" in my definition. I tried to meet all my missing links
there; and the last night I spent in Sinchon for a dinner with a dear friend of
mine. The guy whom I met for the first time was very nervous in his own life.
He was very confused, nervous and afraid. I just said "its the moment, that is important". I think, I heard this line somewhere, may be in some advertisement.
But, what I wanted to said, that life in its own definition, is only the moment in
your life before something happens; before you full fill your dream, achieve your success or get someone back in your life that you always wanted. The next things he said was "and your moment is so long". I laughed and said "yes, its been long and yet not done". To me, I always wanted to achieve my dream
and used to think of leaving the dream. In my eyes, I used to think, Tendulkar
who was and still is living his dream. That was when, I used to lose all my dream, one by one. I remember once my mother told me that, look at Drvid, he
has got his name in a different way but still got there. She advice me to enjoy
different modes of challenges in life. But I was not prepare for it, I wanted success badly and I was becoming chokers all the time. It continued until,
I lost all my dream, people and friends around me. The void was huge and it
still is. One thing I start realising off late, was the moment is life, the moment before anything happen. Its the void, the chase, the struggle, the emptiness,
that is life. Yes, for me its the long moment is my life. I try to enjoy as much as
I can. Its true and no hiding, I feel extremely lonely, frustrated and sometimes
I feel like quiting. Then, I tell myself, its okay to be frustrated as you are human,
but the given the situation you don't have a choice rather than fight and chase.
So, each single day I pray and wish, that I will achieve things I want to and come with a broken heart at night. I still go on as its the moment that is life.
in Seoul, "the city of Joy" in my definition. I tried to meet all my missing links
there; and the last night I spent in Sinchon for a dinner with a dear friend of
mine. The guy whom I met for the first time was very nervous in his own life.
He was very confused, nervous and afraid. I just said "its the moment, that is important". I think, I heard this line somewhere, may be in some advertisement.
But, what I wanted to said, that life in its own definition, is only the moment in
your life before something happens; before you full fill your dream, achieve your success or get someone back in your life that you always wanted. The next things he said was "and your moment is so long". I laughed and said "yes, its been long and yet not done". To me, I always wanted to achieve my dream
and used to think of leaving the dream. In my eyes, I used to think, Tendulkar
who was and still is living his dream. That was when, I used to lose all my dream, one by one. I remember once my mother told me that, look at Drvid, he
has got his name in a different way but still got there. She advice me to enjoy
different modes of challenges in life. But I was not prepare for it, I wanted success badly and I was becoming chokers all the time. It continued until,
I lost all my dream, people and friends around me. The void was huge and it
still is. One thing I start realising off late, was the moment is life, the moment before anything happen. Its the void, the chase, the struggle, the emptiness,
that is life. Yes, for me its the long moment is my life. I try to enjoy as much as
I can. Its true and no hiding, I feel extremely lonely, frustrated and sometimes
I feel like quiting. Then, I tell myself, its okay to be frustrated as you are human,
but the given the situation you don't have a choice rather than fight and chase.
So, each single day I pray and wish, that I will achieve things I want to and come with a broken heart at night. I still go on as its the moment that is life.
