Dhobi Ghat

After a long time I saw a very nice story telling,

the "Dhobi Ghat". I like the last scene where munna

ran after shai's car and gave her arun's adress.

Among all the character I like those "hkat"s

Pahli chhitthi, dusri chitthi, tisri chitthi and the

akhri one! I don't know, I sometimes feel like of

her, think of quitting. Anyhow the journey 

was portrayed in a nice and simple fashion.

I hope Kiran Rao will come up with some 

more pages of her diary.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1433810/

Marrige

Two days back I heard of divorce of one my friend. I was very upset as I am also
going down with my life for few months. I was speechless and didn't know what to do and why this all are happening.  I go to a temple every Sunday, as this is only the human and  spiritual connection I need for the nest week. Today I was ill
could not sleep yesterday night because of bad stomach. I still decided to go having
a cup of tea and three slices of bread for my lunch and breakfast, I started with my cycle. I get down at Noksapeyon, where the temple is via subway.  Today, something happened in that temple that I never witnessed before. One Nepali boy and one girl got married in that temple. Kamala mata, organised their wedding
which lasted for 3 mins. Onely some sloka from Geeta by a Brazilian devotee
and sindur. They came with some of their Nepali friends. But none of their parents were there. I was surprised to see a weeding which just happened with out any glorified festival and ceremony. But, by inner-self was very anxious to know the
real life time of this weeding. I pray though this marriage was  so simple and without there parents should not be like my friends one. Often I ask a question
do we have control over things! Even with science! I don't know.

हम अपनी हदोसे बद्कड़ हैं . हम अपने डर ज्यादा बहादुर हैं . अगर हम एक दुसरे के दुख भान्त सकें. from SRK.

ekta katha

"কাঁচের জানালা ভাঙলো, সে কাঁচ না হয় বদলানো গেলো, কিন্তু যদি কারও মন ভাঙে, সে আর জোরে না। শত্রু না হলেও সে আর তোমার বন্ধু কোন দিন থাকবে না। তাতে শেষ ক্ষতিটা তোমারই।"

hum Kis gali jaa rahein hain

was listening the song
"hum kis gali jaa rahein hain
apna koi thikana nahin.."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KsbiWi3X6wk&feature=related
Nowadays I also count it day by day.
Thinking or knowing nothing abt tomorrow.
this dreamless journey is the most painful part
of my life so far. I speak to me
or avoid mysefl day by day hoping one day it will
stop.. God only knows the answer. ..all the songs
have different meaning now except a funny thing
watching tendulkar or reading his interview.
It seems I lost it completely. I lost everybody surrounding
me. It wasn't my choice I never had a choice :D
I haven't put my photos for months not feeling
the same.

beetein Lamhein

Death, I never thought I wish death so much...
I don't know for last few months it has been a
thought which is endless...
I never thought losing all my dreams one day..
I tried but only tried. I lost too many down the line..
I am not a mood to further continue in this journey..

"daard me bhi yeeh lamhe mushkura jaate hain..
beete lamhe mujhe yaad aantei haain.."

I often ask myself why it has been so painful?
I am fed up of acting in this life. I wanted to shout
in the open sky and run with endless dream and dream
... often see tendulkar saying living dream ..
I used to relish that but all fell into a wrong note
when and how don't know..
I changed my lingo from from by school to that place ..
I used to enjoy every bit of my life..
I never thought I would be lifeless and still living ..
Oh GOD now I believe you and so I pray for my
journey to come to and end soon. I can not bear it
anymore..
Sometime I cry but no tear comes out, I feel like
it has all been dried up...
I haven't  laugh for year ... may be I have done with
it..

"aaj bhi oh manjar najar aantei hain
dil ki birani ko mita jatein hain.."

A rainy day in Seoul

"bhalobeshe sakhi nrivrite jatone amar naamti likho
tomar monero mandire..."
Just listening this song, one of the Rabnidrasangeet.
Its raining for last two days here in Seoul.
But Today I am liking it most. I can remmeber
the poetry by dwijendralal "dhanodhanye pushpe bhara amader ei bansundhara"
I wish I could go back to my school days and enjoy the day with abhik, dibyendu..
and other forgotten-mates :)